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life keeps pushing and pulling me in all directions, yet im unclear of the path i should choose. im not happy nor proudof the one i choosed but neverthless its the path that i should walk now. maybe i might regret choosing this particular path for the rest of my life. Although right now i feel like that this is what i want. but my instincts, which so far has always proven right is screaming at me for being such a dumb dumb to have choosen this path. oh well no need to whine about it now. xx

how it would be to have a superpower?

as long as i could remember i have always been fascinated by superheroes. As a kid i watched all the cartoons and read all the comic books i could find. and fantasized about my special powers. i wanted to fly, i wanted to be invisible, wanted to be strong and the list went on. every passing year i had less and less time to fantasize but than it doesn't mean that the idea of wanting to be a super hero faded away. its just now that those ideas just changed a bit. i still want to fly like superman.but if i had to choose from being able to fly and being able to read what people really feel and think i would choose the latter hands down. i mean the more we mature the more face marks we wear. and we lie more. its just we want to hide either the way we are feeling or we are just plain insecure.

i just ran out of steam,

every begining has an ending

no matter how much we want something to last forever it still comes to an end. the ice cream corn that we don't want to melt always does. the series we want to watch everyday stops running and show re-runs. the high school lovers that wethought would get married and have dozen or so kids break up. the marriage that wethought would never ends, end up in a divorce. it all goes against everything that we as kids, believed. that the bad guys would get killed and the good guys would live happily after for ever and ever. how wrong could we be? i mean imagine all the things that is going around us that we turn a blind eye to. we hope and dream that there would never be an ending in our own life. that this is going to be the fairy tale ending of our life. no one can spoil it. and no one can mess it up. in the end it is us who mess it up. by raising our expectations that when it fails we come crashing and tumbling down. so we should rewire the way we think. we should think every begining has an end. that way we will enjoy the present. since we take everything for granted we tend to overlook the present. either the begining of something was so important that we tend to forgot about the present or the expectation that it would last for ever and ever make us plan for the future that we forget about the present.

thats all i could think for now, TTFN